My quarantine journal 💭
Week 1 of MCO:
Dealt with shock then denial as to how long this would last. Lots of anxiety from the news. Felt confused with disparity of content on social media. One scroll, death & despair. Next scroll, silly Tik Tok vid. A lot irked me. Period came. Tried to cope by making lists but due to emotional (PMS?) burdens, had zero productivity & lotsa negative thoughts floated in my head; mainly how all progress made in my career—due to Covid—has rendered me paralyzed (metaphorically). Then I’d see more devastating news re: Covid. I snap out of it & remind myself there are worser things. Thank God for WhatsApp/Zoom etc which helped fill my void of hopelessness. Knowing I wasn’t alone helped.
Week 2 of MCO:
You don’t know you’re in a dark place til you’re out in the light. This week was my turning point. I’m smarter now at sifting through news so I no longer let it get to me; just read & watched enough to stay informed. Started doing house chores; that felt purposeful. Exercising & sharing my workouts inspired me to find creative ways to endorphin up myself & maybe motivate others too. Played piano more than I ever had in a long time & even learnt 3 new songs as per requests! Cooked pretty much all my meals & altho kitchen is in mid renos & could only churn simple veggie cooking vids (one-handed chef) still tried me best to make a lotta yous hungry 😇 Tik Tok vids are less annoying now, even made some meself lol. Did research on how to help our wounded world & found affinity with @autruiglibal (link in bio if you’d like to donate too). FINALLY looked at my to-do list!
Week 3 of MCO.. or isit RMO?
Began organizing my closet & I have SO much clothes am at day 3 of sorting which to donate/keep (gave me SO much joy—Marie Kondo knew what-sup) Filed my taxes; another thing checked off my list #hurrah Still got more to go but happy bout my progress & where my emo state is at. Sure there’s doubt, fear of the unknown, bad habits to kick off (eg: sleeping at 5am) but there’s also a lot of appreciation for so many things esp friends & fam who’ve given me so much emo support whether they know it or not.
More to say but think caption space gon run ou
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